"Don't let the fear of what could happen make nothing happen." - Doe Zantamata
A few months ago Martin and I realized our relationships outside of our music were suffering. We hadn't made it up to visit his family in Minnesota for months or made it out to help my Grandma on her farm since Christmas. We were booking ourselves solid with music, which is what we wanted, but were running ourselves ragged. Working 40 hour work weeks was wearing on us. We wanted to find a way to record our music, travel, and spend more time with family and friends. We started researching the RV lifestyle and decided this could be a way to see through our current goals. So with fear, uncertainty, and excitement we responded to a craigslist ad and drove out to Sparta, Missouri to purchase our bus.
We are slowly becoming more comfortable with telling people of our uncertain future. While lots of people are excited for us, there are just as many who respond with doubtful questions and worry. I am learning to hold the words of encouragement in my pocket like a hundred dollar bill and shake off the negative comments like a bumble bee.
"Are you going to have the bus finished in time for your tour? Are you going to make enough money with your music? Aren't you scared to not have an actual home?"
WHY YES I AM SCARED.
I'm scared that the bus won't be ready by the time our lease is up. I'm scared of the bus breaking down. I'm scared of driving in big cities in the bus. I'm scared of the challenges that come from living with my significant other in a 7.5' x 18' school bus. I'm scared that we won't make enough money with our music. I'm scared people will think we are crazy. And I am scared to make this blog, because if we fail, it is out there for the whole world to see. But if it weren't for all of the RV travel blogs and music blogs I have read, I would never have the courage to do this. THANK YOU to all the people who have written incredible blogs about bus renovations, being a full time RVer, or making it as musician. Here are four of my favorites:
I hope my blog encourages someone out there to do the same thing. Everyday as a nurse I am reminded of how short life is and how valuable our health is.
So here's to failure.
I see you failure, right around the corner.
I hear you at night when I try to push my to do list to the back of my mind.
I see you in the face of the Home Depot worker who warned us it would cost "twice as much and take twice as long" as we expect.
I smell you in the cloud of fumes our bus left behind the first time we drove it home.